Why I Love Working as a Boudoir Hype Woman!

Hannah here, your personal hype woman. I will be with you 100% of the way as you journey through the Boudoir experience. If you have any questions or concerns, please reach out to me and I will be happy to help! 

I wanted to take a moment to share my own personal journey with you.

Matt has been wanting to take pictures of me for a long long time. I remember when we first met, I would pose for him all the time, for my friends, take photos with other people, by myself, in the mirror, selfies before it was even a thing to take a selfie. I was thin and young and when I looked in the mirror, I liked what was reflected back at me…so, naturally, I wanted to look at pictures of myself. 

I have been this new version of myself for a number of years now. Over one hundred pounds heavier, my face has changed because of dental work, my arms are one of my biggest insecurities where they used to be my proudest accomplishment.

Doing a photo shoot was hard to conceptualize. How would I ever get to a place where I could feel comfortable? Who would even want to see these pictures?! I know Matt loves me and he thinks I’m beautiful but I couldn’t imagine a world in which he would even want to look at photos of me in my current state. Most importantly though, how would I, how could I, ever feel good about what the camera showed me if I currently struggle so much to love what I see in the mirror every day. I pushed it off and pushed it off until I realized that if I was really going to be a part of this, if I was really going to partner with Matt and join him in this business, I HAD to be able to speak to the experience itself. I am not someone who can be disingenuous and I knew that if I didn’t have this to bring to the table, I wouldn’t feel I was being honest when I spoke to women or men or whomever might be interested in having their photos taken, so…

Last week, I let my husband take my pictures…and NOT just any pictures…boudoir pictures 🙈 I took my clothes off and put on a nearly nothing outfit, lay on our bright yellow couch, in our new studio and leaned in to a space where my discomfort was so intense that I almost completely froze up. 

Here’s the thing though. I’ve seen my husband’s pictures, I know what he can do and so, I did something that is so so so very hard for me to do, I let go of control and I trusted him and the process. The result was nothing short of AMAZING. 🤩 i didn’t even have my hair done, i had no make up on and still, I loved it!! I had so much fun! I wanted to do ANOTHER one when we were done!! I felt truly excited by what the camera captured and the images of me were breathtaking! I FELT sexy, I FELT beautiful, I FELT powerful! By letting go, I actually ended up feeling very much IN CHARGE and I wish I hadn’t waited so long. 

And…here I am, going from a place where I was not even able to imagine that anyone would want to see pictures of me, including my husband, to being excited to share them with all of you because I love them MYSELF so much! 

Here’s my additional take away, that I want to share with all of you. If it’s something you’ve been thinking of doing but you keep saying, oh, let me wait until I just lose that last 10 pounds or until I look better…you won’t end up doing it, so, don’t wait! Just do it! I promise you won’t regret it!